I think some of my discrepancy comes from the way I think of some of the words used To assess anxiety. I don't "worry" that someone will leave, I expect it because I think of myself as very difficult to live with. I would be crushed if my wife chose someone else, but I wouldn't say I worry about it. It is what it is. I busted my butt trying to make a prior relationship work, but nothing I did changed the ending. I think experiences like that have given me a more resigned attitude. I'll work to change things and try to make relationships thrive, but if they don't, they don't. Maybe it's growth, but I no longer run after people who choose to run from me. We all have circumstances in our lives that prompt our actions...
With my t however, I do have a lot of anxiety and worry around losing that relationship. In the past 6 months, I've had 2 therapists leave suddenly and unexpectedly. With this t, I keep reminding myself I only have 4 months. After that, I have to move on. I know they only do brief therapy, so it will definitely end...
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