Moonkin, in 2004 I was in a place that felt a lot like what you describe. Not only was I emotionally isolated, I was house-sitting in a town where I had no acquaintances.

I started using some of the activities in Dr. Clay's free book about Self-Help available online. I had to go to the library and print out sections to read, because I didn't have an online connection where I was staying.

Other books that people praise are Feeling Good and The Feeling Good Handbook.

But Dr. Clay's book is what helped me when I decided I was going to crawl out of the hole no matter what it took. I would try one thing, and when I started slipping back, I'd try another, just like he suggests in the book.

Best wishes with this. Please keep us posted. There are some people who care, Moonkin, even if we are not a physical presence in your life but cyber presences.