THIS THIS THIS. I know I've had it for as long as I can remember, fleeting paranoid thoughts that I just chalked up to an active imagination, but lately its like they take over. Its mostly been centered around my wife. I've asked her several times if I had anything to worry about with her new coworkers, simply because she talks about them a lot. Exactly like you said, not confrontationally or angrily, but because I needed to get it out of my head. I tried explaining this to her, and she tried to understand, but I don't think she really did. She knows my family history though, and I know she's upset because she 'always thought we'd have more time' before the crazy hit. It seems the paranoia has escalated recently with one coworker in particular. I can't remember exactly what triggered it, but several times over the last couple days I've been convinced (and even accused, although I tried so hard to phrase it delicately so as not to come across that way) there is something going on with them. Another big paranoia issue has been that I will lose her because of damage done from this crap. Today its that she's been lying to me or at least leaving things out because of a stupid picture on facebook. I've cried more in the last several days than I think I have in my entire life (thanks Aunt Flow for the added emotional support lol). Next week can't come fast enough I feel like I'm drowning.