A couple of people who know me have called me brave. I looked at them like they're crazy. And then I finally understood that someone with schizoaffective and PTSD has two jobs and can hold them down, even though its only part time, it's still a lot and a lot to accomplish and I've done a lot in my life and I should be proud of it. It's not an easy thing to be ill and go through life on an everyday basis. Every moment is difficult. But I'm learning better management skills and coping better.. Even when I don't cope well my T helps me to understand how to cope better the next time and that's a big help