It sometimes feels like I cycle up to a couple times a day but I'm certain it's not a typical "cycle" it's just whatever cycle I am in amplified by life. I can't describe the feeling of going up, it just feels like it at some point and later I can pinpoint certain warning signs I missed. I feel weird saying this about the depression because it sounds so dramatic but it has felt like literally a black fog slowly but within the minute creeps in from your head to your toes and you're left with just this fog as a shell and anything normal is blocked behind it deep inside of you. I still remember the first time I felt it but the last two years it hasn't felt
So dramatic.