i am doing ok... which is as good as it gets. Until circumstances unravel themselves that is all i can hope for. Klonopin and halcion are my best friends. i see my pdoc wednesday if i don't get called in to work.

klonopin has a really really high LD50.. so it's relatively safe. My pdoc worries about me drinking while taking it but so far so good.. i guess i won't know if i screw it up though.

i just i don't care much about that, but i appreciate the concern. i just don't have a lot of mental space for optimism. i have good moments here and there and that keeps me going. And as i said today is ok.

thanx for listening