Im just so sick of being unable to do things. I know I'm suppose to keep a positive attitude but it's so hard!

My mother is coming to town in 3 weeks ( a little less) and is staying with me. Due to fibroymyalgia (also depression) I have not been able to keep up on my house.

It always takes me all weekend to store up energy to go to work on Monday. Since today was a holiday I decided it would be great to get stuff done.

I was cleaning stuff out of my up stairs for a few hours; bagged things for salvation army; hung up summer clothes; cleaned bathroom closet - you know NORMAL stuff!!!

I totally threw myself into a fit of pain and now can barely move. I knew it was getting bad but I kept going, you know "I'm on a roll, don't stop" - "just one more thing". But it just gets me soooooo mad because it's not even fun things I'm doing, but necessary easy things and I can't do it.

I just want to be normal, have a normal life. It's bad enough this illness has me home with no social life and that's depressing enough, but now I can't even do normal household chores.

ARGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

(NOT SO) Tranquility