If I stumble across something that's related to "my" trauma (for example a newspaper article), even though I know perfectly well it's a bad idea and will just make me feel worse, most of the time I'll look at it anyway. Once or twice I've even deliberately looked it up online, and really regretted it afterwards. I've no idea why I do this...maybe I think I'll cope, maybe I'm trying to make myself feel worse, maybe I still have trouble believing it actually happened...

When I told my therapist that I did this, he didn't seem to understand, which worried me. I can't be the only one who does this sort of thing...can I?