I´m hoping to start a new therapy soon and I´ve had to work very hard to find possible T:s. I still don´t know if I´ll find one. There are a couple of T:s I find "good enough" and I´ve felt a little more hope after meeting them in evaluation sessions.

But I though feel that it isn´t enough seeing a T just once a week. I feel I need to see a T for perhaps three times a week to feel real support and there´s no chance I can pay for that many sessions a week. Besides that, up to two sessions a week, not three, is here seen as "normal" when you´re seeing a T in a private practise, that is not belonging to psychiatric care.

I know I don´t belong to patient groups within psychiatric care, I saw a doctor and there was no talk about referring me into psychiatric care. I don´t have those kind of diagnoses either.

But I still feel a session a week is much of just feeling a bit happier or less anxious for a day or two, then I fall into the same patterns again that I can´t get myself out of. Sleeping at day time, having no motivation to do something. I feel trapped in my unemployment and so on.

Perhaps I need to see what therapy can give me in a longer term, I saw my former T just for 12 times. But I feel so lost and lonely and that one session is just a little bit more than "chatting over coffee". Even if the T is nice and competent.