Not sure what's going on, maybe the lack of good solid sleep? It's like looking in the wrong end of a telescope, everything is getting further away and much more distant emotionaly. Perversely I'm getting more sensitive emotionaly im terrified of letting anyone close enough or I'll get hurt. I'm tearful and anxious even though I've been great at getting some form of excersize daily since last Friday.
Perhaps it is just fear about embarking on a new life change. In the back of my mind, it questions, so what if you go back to normal weight, so what if you get stronger physically, so what if you make new friends, in the end you will still be a failure as a human being.

Change is so frightening.