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Not lies! Denial can be part of the symptoms. Have you been to the doctor to get a diagnosis? One in four will suffer a severe mental health problem in their life. If your husband lives with you then he might be in a position to let you know when he feels you are not feeling well and need help. It says on your profile page that you are suicidal. Please contact a help line is soon as possible if this is the case >>> Samaritans | Samaritans and Common Hotline Phone Numbers | Psych Central