Thanks for the serious responses. Currently no meds Wander unless you count the vitamin c and fish oil I take when I remember. The fish oil I just started, the vit c I take as an immune boost when I'm feeling under the weather. I don't actually have an appt, they told me for the initial appt I have to just walk in between certain hours. I switched shifts with someone at work so I'll be off Wednesday instead of Friday, that'll be the first day I can go. Still seems like ages away, its going to be a long weekend. I really relate to the way some of you describe it though, so that gives me hope for BP instead of PPD.