Pejorative, that really does make a lot of sense. I wish that I had been successful at something, but I was never encouraged to try, and didn't do what I could, and now I am afraid that it is too late. I'm trying, but I give up so easily. No excuse, I know. I think that I had potential once, and maybe I still do, but I'm just not sure and I keep looking for external support and encouragement, and that doesn't work too well. For one thing, I'll never believe it until it comes from within.