Hi lilodian, wishing you lots of luck

But just remember there's a whole lot more to you/out there than a/any particular job if........OK??
You have been through and come through so much stuff, and it's not your job that's got you through that, it's YOU who's got you through that!!
And practical decisions years ago.........well however it may feel if it comes to it, you/your life/who you are deep down are very, very different from then........and you have us now
So lots of different practical decisions you can make with some support!!

And for right now..........really well done on taking this so well, and great principle there.......you keep standing by it
And keep rolling with those distractions, plenty of more positive stuff to think about and to do, right??

Alison