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Old Jan 31, 2015, 06:54 AM
UpDownMiddleGround UpDownMiddleGround is offline
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Originally Posted by AlwaysChanging2 View Post
I obsess on most everything. When it plays into my addictions, I'm stuck. Took me 15 years to quit a 20 year smoking habit. Sex...I got to have it. Spending money on stupid things....done it. I can get so locked in whatever, hours fly by. This has made me late for appointments or skipping work at times. And if I'm at work, I get hung up on the smallest of details and it looks like I got nothing done.

But other things like jealousy, cleaning, drinking, making things perfect, perfect wording, exactness, to name a few....just about everything I do. To quit things I have to tear myself away from it. Is that bipolar or some other quirky thing that I have got going on? Anyone else?

It's like these 2 paragraphs, it may just be a few sentences, but I've edited them about 20 times already and they still aren't perfect! It's frustrating when you haven't had an English glass in 25 years.
I'm not sure if it is linked or not because it is not in the list of criteria. My T mentioned the obsessive traits very early on in my treatment with her and long before she mentioned that she suspected BP dx. When I think about how it feels for me, it feels sort of like the projects that I start (while manic) and don't finish because my mood shifts. If there is a part to be found, I will shop all day, going from store to store to store. The idea of what I need for my project takes precedence over anything else. I can sometimes pick it out but it does't make it stop. But, sometimes I can pick out that I chatty but it doesn't make it stop either. At work, I will have great ideas and work on them, but I know if I don't finish I won't come back. So i work really long hours on those days. If i don't finish, I usually continue to think about it for days because my assignment has changed and I no longer have time to finish. Maybe it is associated, maybe it is something else, maybe its "BP I, with obsessive traits."
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