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Originally Posted by AlwaysChanging2
I obsess on most everything. When it plays into my addictions, I'm stuck. Took me 15 years to quit a 20 year smoking habit. Sex...I got to have it. Spending money on stupid things....done it. I can get so locked in whatever, hours fly by. This has made me late for appointments or skipping work at times. And if I'm at work, I get hung up on the smallest of details and it looks like I got nothing done.
But other things like jealousy, cleaning, drinking, making things perfect, perfect wording, exactness, to name a few....just about everything I do. To quit things I have to tear myself away from it. Is that bipolar or some other quirky thing that I have got going on? Anyone else?
It's like these 2 paragraphs, it may just be a few sentences, but I've edited them about 20 times already and they still aren't perfect! It's frustrating when you haven't had an English glass in 25 years.  |
I'm not sure if it is linked or not because it is not in the list of criteria. My T mentioned the obsessive traits very early on in my treatment with her and long before she mentioned that she suspected BP dx. When I think about how it feels for me, it feels sort of like the projects that I start (while manic) and don't finish because my mood shifts. If there is a part to be found, I will shop all day, going from store to store to store. The idea of what I need for my project takes precedence over anything else. I can sometimes pick it out but it does't make it stop. But, sometimes I can pick out that I chatty but it doesn't make it stop either. At work, I will have great ideas and work on them, but I know if I don't finish I won't come back. So i work really long hours on those days. If i don't finish, I usually continue to think about it for days because my assignment has changed and I no longer have time to finish. Maybe it is associated, maybe it is something else, maybe its "BP I, with obsessive traits."