Hello Shirt1212,

It was natural for you to look up to your Mom when you were growing up as a child as she was the care giver. But these realisations now are important. You Mom obviously has some real issues, no one has the right to hit someone else! This is abuse.

So, I know you must feel some sort of obligation to your Mom but you need to do what is best for your mental health and the safety of your own children. If your Mom did this to you, it is likely she would do the same thing with your children. I would suggest getting therapy for everything you have been through.