I understand this feeling. I have felt it before about myself and now feel it at times with people where I work. And I often find myself expressing it even if I don't completely feel that way so I think I get it.
I'll say upfront that I am not the smiley, optimistic type at all. Given all I've been through that would be just being in denial to pretend that I could overlook all the terrible things. But I do believe in the potential for therapy and personal work. And I believe it can be something that has a transformative effect, not just little changes. The little changes add up, but there are also big moments of breakthrough too.
It doesn't depend on age though I wish that I had started earlier because I do think it is harder or sadder to do it later, but it also makes me work harder and savor the moments and strides forward.
I went in without a particular goal, just symptom management and support at first. As time went by, I started to see areas that I wanted to work on either because something was tangled or because I wanted to strengthen something.
I admit a lot of times it is slow and seems like it isn't worth the work, but in the end I realize how much I was able to do. And when I look over even the span of a few years I see a different person in many ares of my life. That is just cool and feels great. I can't say it is futile even if at the ground level on the day to day process it may sometimes feel that way.
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“Our knowledge is a little island in a great ocean of nonknowledge.” – Isaac Bashevis Singer
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