Borncatastrophe!! You're not useless, you're not a liability!!
Things just aren't going as well as you'd like them to be going, right now. And for some of those things absolutely give yourself a break, no-one's perfect!!!
And don't you go judging yourself purely on some things you'd rather not have done, there is going to be so much more to you than those things!!!
Now you know (providing the evidence is absolutely unshakable/no disputing it at all!!) some of the things you have done.......now you've got an opportunity to work on ways of better handling situations like that if they were to come up again..........and if you're tempted at any time (bit of self-monitoring here) to do something you'd rather not do, reach for advise/support if you need to, hey??
And more noticing the good things in "just me", OK??!!!
And I repeat!!............. You're not useless, you're not a liability!!
Alison