The truth is that a person does not come to know the truth until they have suffered enough.
We suffer because of our ignorance.
(I said, 'OUR' ignorance. We are all connected and other people's ignorance will make themselves and you suffer just as your ignorance makes yourself and others suffer)

You cannot take my or anybodies word on such matters.
You have to find out for yourself.

The only person you need to prove things to is yourself.

Seek and you will find that you did not find because you were seeking the wrong things.

We all have been there and done that or will be there and do that.