Oh my gosh. My husband deposited 500 dollars in my account on Saturday. He said I had 900. I have no idea. I was just abou to pay my bills and the automated system says I have 230. I am on hold to speak w/ a representative to verify what I had on Sat. What did I do??? I can't keep track of the money; I have been spending impulsively, not thinking it was adding up like that.

I got a refund check from taxes and a big refund check from my student loan. I haven't deposited those yet, so I do have money to pay my bills. But I am SO SCARED to put those checks in my account because I obviously can't control myself. I think I am on the verge of tears.

I think I want my T. I need my T.

EDITED: Ok, whoa. The 500 wasn't posted yet because of the holiday weekend so my balance is really 500 more than the automated system said.

BUT.

I still can't control myself.

I am working part-time now because of my internship.

Only 21 hrs. per week.

And I have a million bills to pay.

Today I went to Target and bought stuff we need for the house (cleaning supplies, paper products, etc.)

Then a shirt.

And a fig tree.

They are so nice.

Help.

The medication is doing a number on me right now. I usually go to sleep right after I take it but now I'm staying up and I can't even hold my head up. So dizzy.

EDITED AGAIN: Oh my gosh. I have the most enormous stack of bills that I didn't pay. I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHY. I just opened my car insurance bill and it is so late that it was almost cancelled. I am paying by phone right now. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?! WHY CAN'T I DO THIS? I don't even know why I %#@&#! up. I don't know.

Can't see straight. Gotta call the pdoc tomorrow.