Alright so I have made some progress with my mental health more or less, at least I am working on things...doing my best to keep up on therapy even decided to give another depression med a try as I can't get rid of the feeling of it constantly dragging me down. Aside from that looking into the idea of moving out into subsidized housing..I got one application for a place where the wait could be up to 2 years but its a place where elderly and/or disabled qualify so the person who gave me the application said its still worth turning it in, just in case I am still looking in that length of time or in case something opens up sooner. So yeah to me that is a lot of stuff to handle at once...for me.

Anyways I mentioned the apartment search and that I may have to figure out how to budget to afford internet service if that would not be covered by apartment rent to my moms boyfriend....I live with her and him and he was home in the same area of the house so I was more making conversation. But he says 'well maybe you could get a job'...just frusterating since if I get a job then I'd have to report to SSI so they could decrease my SSI so I still would not be in any better of a position financially even if I did put the effort into getting some very part time job....and that is if I could even function well enough to show up to said job. I mean sure maybe someday a job would be an option but not now.....so how do I make myself less irritated when people suggest I get a job? I don't think that will stop so figure might as well find some way to make it bother me less since its not practical right now.