well the being watched part is kinda getting better ever since i put black canvas cloth over the window and taped the sides. im still afraid like someone is going to come into my house while im showering and i wont hear my dog bark and they will come into my shower and stab me. i always see shadows on the other side while in the shower and idk what it is. in fact no matter if in the shower or not im afraid someone is in my house. i actually check in my house every 20-30 min. the WHOLE house. i cant rely on my dog. plus ghosts...

on the other hand i dont even have any motivation to actually get out of my clothes or clean myself up to begin with. i dont brush my teeth. i dont wash my face. i barely change clothes.

im not depressed so thats definitely not it.

its weird the only thing i only wash is my hands - frequently.