A blank death starr would be wide eyes, large pupils, a look like the person is dead inside. I'm jealous that people talk with others much longer and more often then they talk to me. I was talking with someone and that person, keep looking and walking away to get away from me. People that are new to each other have hugged in front of me and that hurts, because I haven't been hugged in 10 years. I just want what other people have and I have no way to get it, that makes me angry.

On top of everything else, my parents have no money and talked with a lawyer about bankrupty, which we may end up losing our house.