ErinBear -- Thanks for the encouragement, and the ideas. I drew a couple of pictures about the abuse, maybe I need to rip them up instead of leaving them under my bed. I guess I need to give myself permission to be angry and let it out, rather than turning it onto myself in self-destructive ways. I yelled at my boss today -- guess that wasn't the best way for the anger to come out, even if he was being a jerk.

By the way, "ErinBear" has a lot more personality to it than my "mtd". Maybe I came here and labled myself a little too anonymously. It's probably ok to show a bit more of myself here.

Thanks again.