ma'am

u have already used the words that would get u back into IP
self harm is one of the golden commitment things ......u tell a doctor that they will have u in IP fairly fast

i am sorry u are reminding me of Marisa (this women was the queen of drama ) .....if your head is not on strait then go back to the fricken IP and have them do it all at once do not leave stay in until the meds are right and the head is clear ....your just putting yourself tho more hell by this stuff .........go and end it get it all done at once in weeks instead of more months

good luck ma'am .....check back in here in a few months see how u played it