So I have had some issues with this well known substance. Have had a few times of blacking out(not remembering much) or just generally getting too intoxicated...and some other incidents that I would prefer didn't happen but have, anyways this isn't about all those specific times. Anyways I don't feel like I am addicted in fact haven't drank any alcohol since a beer at the beginning of last week...no cravings, I could really care less for the most part which is good since I couldn't afford any anyways.

But yeah basically I still want to enjoy a beer or drink here and there...but not get too intoxicated, or drink to cope since a lot of times when I get too intoxicated its because I am trying to numb feelings....so treating it like addiction and going to AA would be useless to me since I do have control over if I decide to drink or not, unlike addiction where I imagine I'd feel like I 'need' it....like with the klonopin I was prescribed a while back that was a disaster. IDK does anyone else relate to this. But yeah it cannot be a coincidence that any time my alcohol use has resulted in over-intoxication it seems something on my mind is bothering me.

Anyways I really hope this doesn't get moved to addiction because I think this is more feeling self destructive and alcohol being the tool used rather than alcohol & genetics being the culprit.