This is the thing that worries me... I am trying to do what people my age did 10 years ago. I feel ashamed of what I learned lately. I feel so left behind. I feel there is a really long road to take. I feel that I looked foolish while naively attempting to change something.

Today I came back from my T session and felt great and optimistic. A few hours later I was reminded how far behind I am and It's really intimidating.

There are two worries... the opposite sex and having a really small circle of friends.

While other people are going to larger birthday parties. I only go to a large one that my friend makes and the one that my cousin makes (when I say large I mean 10-15 people). Almost nobody except my family comes to my birthday. Most of my friends are in college or are working in the city and they don't come home often.

I hope this feeling will pass by when I wake up tomorrow.