Hola again, Orvel,
I can hear what you say. I sometimes have the same feeling.
But, think a thing. You are now learning yourself better through therapy and you are now having the determination to explore the outside world.
So, you are going to enjoy all this process much moré bc you were waiting for these things and craving for them.
You can't change the fact that perhaps, you weren't ready to get these things normal people get so easily. Now, you can get them.

I know how you feel. I feel a naive when I'm an old person.
Why not thinking that being a naive can also imply that you are moré genuine and therefore moré special.

You have time to meet people. You sound for you posts that you are open up people. You will get it.