So, I tried to sum things up in the title of this post. What is happening is, although really only good things happen, nothing horrible has happened in a long time, I'm in constant fear that "the other shoe will drop" and all my good will turn to horrible. Like if I have some bad karma or the universe is going to pull some horrible prank on me.

Of course when I go through an actual bad time, I'm so scared of the worst, but things never turn out too bad to handle. It's awful that I can't just enjoy the good things, live more in the moment, without worrying constantly that it's all going to fall apart.

I think this is because I'm bipolar and I'm so used to every up having a down and vice versa. I've gone through some terrible times in my life and I'm always waiting for things to go back to the bad old days.

Anybody else go through these types of feelings/anxiety?