I am so livid at my exT. She took advantage of me, used me for her own self-fulfillment. I'm also so angry with myself. How could I let this go on for so long? Why didn't I see the signs as they were happening. Granted she was my first therapist but still! It took 5 months of constant of me constantly talking about my suicidal ideation before she actually took me seriously. Straight up lied to me more then once. I question if she really cared. All I want to do is burn the last checks she will ever receive from me.