Hello Quiddie: I'm sorry to read that your life has come to this. I know something of what you're feeling. Psych med's haven't ever really done much for me. I've been on Cymbalta for the past 2+ years. I stayed on it mostly because it seemed easier to stay on than to get off. But I don't know that it really did allot for me. (I'm currently tapering off of it due to cost considerations.) I also don't see a therapist. I've seen several over the years but it's just pointless. I don't have or seek any friends. I pretty-much just keep to myself. (I wrote, in another post, that this is my gift to the world! It's difficult to keep going year after year. I hope that somewhere you will be able to find the strength to keep pressing ahead.