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Old Jan 31, 2015, 09:57 PM
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I've been hospitalized twice, at neither time was I completely honest with the physician about my symptoms. My 1st was at the age of 18, and they dx'd me with a "chemical imbalance" (is that even a dx?), then recommended that I transfer to a "1/2 way house." I left thinking there was nothing wrong with me and without looking back. Second hospitalization was at the age of 31. At that time I had not slept in 4-5 days and was having major psychosis, though I was completely unaware of this. My mom insisted that I see someone immediately The doctor diagnosed me with bipolar 1, and I complied with tx for a short time, but only to resolve my current sx's that were causing major life disturbances. But again not for a second did I believe that this dx was accurate. In fact, until just recently I was convinced that this very highly respected physician was lying for the purpose of insurance payment. I am now 45, and just weeks ago came to the realization that I certainly do have bipolar. It has been an extremely destructive force in my life, and right now it's difficult coming to terms with all of it. Now I firmly believe that my 1st sx's began at around the age of 6 or 7. That is when the frequent night terrors began, as well as mood swings, and delusions.
Sorry to hear that you are having so many troubles with your Bipolar. It is challenging to accept and overcome at times. Especially when we enter into those sort of hopeless depression moods.

I'd recommend reading this thread: http://forums.psychcentral.com/bipol...r-bipolar.html

There is a lot of helpful comments on it from people who have had to comes to terms with accepting it. It is possible. I speak from experience. Accepting and managing my bipolar is very new to me within the last 4 months despite having been diagnosed for 4 years now. Remember, accepting it does not mean liking it, but rather making peace with it.
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