((((((( Justice ))))))))
Probably 100 of the 120 were anon readers (reading but aren't members), software "counters", and other things. Alot of them probably aren't even human to be able to respond if they could.
Also, please remember that others here struggle as well and respond as we can.
I'm sorry you're going through such a difficult time. Your pain is immense. Please stick close to drs and any real-life support you have as well, OK?
Thinking of you,
KD