For me, IMHO and FWIW, a big part of learning to live with the disease is knowing and constantly reminding yourself that it never really subsides and no matter how normal or stable you feel, you must never forget that you're only a sleepless night or other stressful event away from your next episode. I can understand why you might feel incapable of parenting (I would never want to subject kids to my symptoms) but don't give up on romance... there's someone out there who will love you the way you are. Never give up.

Best wishes.