I have quit my T. Which was a very hard thing to do. I'm now reflecting on a few things. My T loved to analyse - but not my feelings. I often felt that she ignored the things I said about my feelings. One time I told her I had had suicidal thoughts at the age of 18, this is the first time I'd ever told anyone this, she didn't say anything at all. A couple of times I had a really severe emotional response after my session with her and felt like I was back as a toddler experiencing a trauma, I'd curl up and sob, she never really said anything about this when I told her. The last session I told her I was perhaps angry with her about something from 2 months previously. It was hard for me to say this, I dreaded what she might say, she didn't say anything at all, just talked about something else. Sometimes I cried when I was with her, she never commented on that at all. I don't know how a T might respond to feelings, I somehow felt that it would be helpful to talk about these things, especially the the curling up and sobbing. The only thing she said about that was that it is good to feel the sad feelings. I think I somehow wanted to explore what these feelings meant and how they might relate to my current feelings. Any thoughts?
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