So I'm a suicidal person I go from one day wanting to blow my brains out to the next day being perfectly fine.

I don't plan on doing it and sometimes I fell like the only reason I don't is because of my children. I don't want to leave them without a mother but then other times I feel like they would probably be better off without me.

I'm not very good at it. Being a parent or wife. I sit here and stare at my house and know all these things need to get done but don't do them.

I just can't seem to get my *** up and just be a damn parent, do the laundry, clean the dishes, clean the house.

Wtf am I suppose to do? Does anyone else have times like this? I get manic and clean everything then the next day I sit and do nothing and let it all fall to pieces again.