I want the same thing as many potheads do or did... To be able to get high occasionally. I don't think that it is possible for me. Anytime I was able to stop for a while, I eventually get some again, start off slowly and before I know it I am back to smoking every 3 hours except for sleep of course. I need to get sobriety. I have other mental issues on top of addiction.

I can't imagine myself never smoking pot again. Especially when it seems like it is getting more and more acceptable every day. Plus there's the States legalizing it. Am I actually going to quit just before I get to the "homeland?" 
But seriously that just seems like a nightmare.

I have been getting high for 23 years or so. I was the one with the High Times calendar on her wall. I had a lifetime subscription to High Times at one time. I think my ex made me cancell it. I have norml t shirts. I have been waiting for this day of legalization to come but wait... I'm getting off the bus. What?!

I swear I feel like I am expecting to bury an old friend.

My little sister and I have been able to bond so much because of weed. We have spent a lot of time together sober too, but we might never have been able to repair the crap our parents did to make us mortal enemies as kids if not for the weed. It brought us together.

I guess I have a few big pressing questions. If I decide to follow this sobriety path, I am going to also go to local NA groups because the closest MA group is over 500 miles away. Does anyone have any experience with NA? Will they really accept me? What happens if I relapse a few times? Can I really "keep coming back?"