I'm moving out as soon as I finish my English course.

But I'm pretty sure my dad says he's gonna give me cash so he doesn't have to pay 2000 a month for child support. So he's just tricking me but if that's the case, screw it.

My apartment.. My mom can keep it. Or sell it. What ever. There's no jobs here. I'll probably have to sell it anyways.

I'll move in with my brother or I don't know.

My dad knows this place isn't good for me. I can't be around my step dad. He still comes into the house. I'm not living. I still get abused. They drink all time. All the time. Hypocritical.. Just insane..

I asked multiple times for them to teach me how to drive when I was 16. They didn't because they rather do their own thing and they don't want me to wreck their vehicles bull ****. They're the ones stealing my benzos and driving cuz they're anxious from paying bills that my dad pays for.

My dad asks me if I'm schizophrenic a lot. Or "schizo". I told my dad that if I stay here any longer, I will be. Cuz I'm pretty sure I wouldn't need antipsychotics an hearing voices and having a dramatic change in OCD if I wasn't abused and alone in cold isolation for so damn long?? It's true.

My mom said she would kick me out onto the street if I quit my job. Well I realized I didn't want to be a welder anymore.. That's normal right??

I'm so confused. I wish I could my mind off of these things like normal but I have to sit here alone.

Now I will study..

I'm pretty sure my step dad is just using my mom so he can get Canadian citizenship..
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