Good questions that I didn't even ask myself.

I was always afraid of these social gatherings. Now I am weirded out by the fact that not going to parties worries me. My guess is that I have the need to "come out of my shell" and while doing that I want to have something interesting to "show" to people. Until now, I used to talk little, and now that I want to talk more I want some material. It's as if not knowing people is my insecurity. When I hear that someone went somewhere and I didn't do anything that night, I automatically feel insecure.

My main worries about the opposite sex is basically inexperience.

Sometimes I feel that people pitty me because of this.

Thanks for asking these questions... now I have something to think about .