(((alligatorsky)))

I hear you pain and I am with you here. Please know that you are not alone and you have something I long for again. I lost my dog over a year ago and I miss him so dearly. I know that it may be heard to believe but if you were not in this living world there would be so many heartbroken 2 legged beings and at least one 4 legged being. I hear your desperation and I hear your anguish. When I hear that you just want to isolate and sleep all the time and that you don't have any motivation. I am wondering if you may be depressed. I feel that so many issues stem from depression. Have you ever been evaluated for depression? Also you say that you don't have a social life and you are uneasy around people. You may also be suffering from a form of anxiety. I feel that you have enough symptoms to be checked out by a therapist or psychiatrist. Could you check into getting help for your issues? It almost sounds like you are trying to go uphill without any steam. It is kind of self defeating. I would definitely seek professional help. You matter and your feelings matter. I don't really think anyone understands just how much you are struggling. I hear you and others will want to help you get on the right course as well. Welcome to PC where you will get good feedback and an array of supportive comments. I hope that you keep reaching out here but also please ask for help at home. I wish you the very best and please keep us posted.