what can i do to get off the pressure from both sides?
i now see my personality is nothing,in childhood,my family cursed me

and shouted at me and i could be down for a long time.thus not too

much connected with the little friends.and i knew this was not

good,and asked my broken family for some time of my own away from

school to reflect.no one listened.and the bad situation was

developing,till my strange appearance,(mostly sad looks and

aloneness),met the vicious gossip on the streets at my youth.family

ignored and denied all my reasons and was still pressing me for not

being like others.so this is me now,who though came up a better

understanding of myself,my position through all the years' agony and

agwish,the hospital locked-ups,tons of abuse,esp. countless insults

from the family and outside it,still have to face the not changed

double pressure.oh.help.

btw,i suggest that usa should refine the definition of freedom of

speech:talk all things,only things.you talk down each other,then you

got restricted of your creativity and usa is left the developed

status only in tech sense.

don't know why the print is wide.