I´m searching for a new T and I´m not on meds or within psychiatric care. I´m searching for a psychotherapist within the psychodynamic field. I wouldn´t dare do anything near commiting suicide, that is taking pills and so on but I still think my life has no value at all.

I would want to be honest with a T about my thoughts and to be able to say things like I don´t think my life is precious, it´s pointless and small improvements wouldn´t do any difference. I don´t cry when I think about life this way, it´s nothing extraordinary about it. There´s no chance of building the life I want and I will always be disappointed even if I changed some parts in my life to the better. My life is already over in that aspect.

If I tell a T about this I see there´s a big risk that most T:s would just tell me that they doesn´t work with clients like me. Or is it safe telling a T stuff like this? Anyone who has talked about this? (Not within psychiatric care)

Even if I think my life won´t get anywhere near what I want it to be I want a T so everyday life can be a bit more bearable.