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Katicka said:
Im so exhausted with BP.. I wish that the exhaustion would stop and I could just feel peace. I'm exhausted with the swings going from one extreme to the other. Im exhausted with how I physically feel. Im exhausted with taking meds that make me feel horrible after I take them. Im exhausted with having to do what the doctors, my therapist and social worker want me to do. I'm exhausted with not being able to see my BF. Im exhausted with not being able to plan things and know how I will be Im exhausted of being in debt almost on a continual basis. Im exhausted with not having my night life like I used to. I'm exhausted of being on SSD and not being able to work and be in my chosen field. Everything is exhausting me.

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I know exactly what you mean. I too am exhausted with my especially wacky fruitloop loony toon Bipolar disturbance. I'm exhausted with the moods that cycle, I'm exhausted of the damn voices in my head that come even WITHOUT moods. I'm exhausted with the pills they give me because they either don't work or give me side effects.Hopefully the Lithium starts working soon at the 1800 mg. dose, because otherwise I'll have to ditch that and get another one. Just like the Geodon. If it continues to give me side effects, I have to go back to Abilify. Now my hand has started shaking again.

I'm exhausted about everyone thinking I'm OK, when I"m not feeling OK. I can function like before. Now I eat more than usual because of the meds. Much less than with Risperdal but still noticeable. I'm exhausted too with my depressive thinking and paranoia of people. I have less paranoia than before, but that doesn't mean much if I still think that my ex-friend is coming to kill me. It's all exhausting. So you certainly aren't alone. I rapid cycle too but I've heard that's common with adolescent Bipolar, and I don't know if that will last. Hopefully not. That's really all I need: Weird rapid cycling Bipolar with psychosis in and out of mood. Terrific.

I can certainly sympathize and relate. You aren't alone Katicka. My thoughts are with you.