This is a question I find myself asking more often than I care to for sure. I get exhausted by the self doubt I have about so many things since I've been diagnosed and on medication. It's the knowledge of the diagnosis and the stabilizing effect of the meds that have me often asking "is this a good idea or is this a crazy idea." Prior to these two things all ideas were great and some were the best ideas ever. I find myself second guessing a lot.

Right now I'm in the midst of analyzing something to death and wondering is it good or is it bipolar. I'm thinking, at 43 years old, about going back to college. I have a Bachelor's degree and it's not a masters I'm thinking of getting. I have a Psychology degree ironically enough and haven't worked in the field for years and don't want to return to it. I'm thinking about getting and associates degree in Architectural and Engineering Design. It's learning how to do design in auto cad and other computer software for the most part.

I'm not strong in math and I have some significant debt, but no kids, no pets, no wife, no girlfriend, and I was a great student when I went to college the first time when I was 30 years old. I don't know, I didn't mean to go into the specifics, but I wondered how people handle the second guessing and the figuring out what is being driven by the bipolar disorder and what's not.