you know what?
i just thought about it.
if i went to the hospital...i wouldnt eat.
then they would know theres more problems with me. but they wouldnt know if im not eating cuz of psychosis or becuz i dont wanna gain weight.

bu you know what?
FOOD IS TAINTED.
when i eat nowadays i am so close to throwing up. its the equivalent to people seeing wormss in their food.
but im feeling as if food is unnatural for my body.

i could maybe live without food if i just drank liquids.