Let me just start off by explaining the week that I have had. Seriously. You can't make this stuff up. My brother went to the ER twice in two days for first threatening suicide and disappearing and then for threatening to kill someone at his school. Then on Tuesday night my boyfriend of four years dumped me out of nowhere. Over the phone. Then he blocked me and refused to speak to me, saying that it would be "too hard". Then I was dropped from an important class and had to beg to be let back in. My grades are dropping dramatically because I've been so distracted. My stress is through the roof. Then on friday my house was broken into while I was still inside and I hid in the bathroom screaming and calling the police while the intruders tried to kick the bathroom door in. Then the same guys came back yesterday and started rattling the doorknob of our front door, trying to get in. The cops were called both times, and they haven't been caught. Now that I have a moment to catch my breath, I'm just sad and lonely. I got rid of all the things my boyfriend gave me, thinking it would help, but now I just feel even more depressed. He was my whole life. And I know that's unhealthy, and I know that ultimately this is going to be good for me, but right now it just really hurts. I miss the excitement I felt when he'd text me after work and now there's just silence. I just deleted him on Facebook because it was too hard to see all the things he was posting. I'm so hurt and confused and lost and I don't want to start everything over. It hurts. It hurts so bad. My room feels empty and I have this super painful tightness in my chest. I feel like no one wants me. I feel worthless and ugly.