I was really thrown off guard, panicked and reacted very poorly to the situation. I drank a lot and the original feeling got very warped and confused. Was I overdramatic? Yes, I was. Was I an *** to LCM? Yes, I absolutely was. And I feel so guilty I can't sleep.

However, I do think she was wrong to not warn me that I could have seen her. Regardless of if it is a public hall which she does have every right to go to, it's a public hall that I happen to work in and practice in and hang out in and rehearse in. She is well aware of that and even knew that running into me was a possibility. I told her last session that I don't want to ever want to see a picture of her daughter. She knows I get upset when she talks about her. There was a very real possibility that I could have run into them and saw them together and she knew that would absolutely crush me.

I also don't think she should have tried to refer me to her boyfriend without telling me that. I'm glad I didn't see him in practice because if I did and found out later, I would have felt used by her to help start up his business or to help them pay her rent. Yes, maybe he wasn't her boyfriend, but I highly highly doubt that given the context clues from when she's talked about this pdoc before and when I saw him at her office. I just feel like at a minimum, she should have told me that her opinion of this doctor was extremely biased.

I was upset because I felt like that whole thing was very insensitive to me. Yes, it was her daughter's concert and she absolutely has a right to go, but she should have warned me and talked to me about it beforehand. My school T's have all gone to concerts that I was either playing in or working and they told me ahead of time just so that I wouldn't be totally blindsided. I feel like there is absolutely no way she could have forgotten that there was a chance I could be there. I've taken her around the school before. She should have handled this differently.

Maybe she didn't tell me because she didn't want me to come see her if I wasn't working. But she knows me well enough to know that I wouldn't have.

And yeah people like to jump down my throat but they all would have had a similar reaction if this happened to them.