Thanks SabinaS--

I've been up all night upset about today's lesson and lots of other things that feel like like setbacks. My instructor--a woman--- had been helpful up until today. My rational side keeps saying maybe she was having a bad day but the rest of me wants to get a new instructor pronto.

I drive in a small geographical area, surface streets only. I have been trying to master this for decades and I am so frustrated at this point. I feel like both she and my therapist are frustrated with me and that is making me feel hopeless.

It's stupid, but I am having suicidal thoughts over this. (No worries I'm safe)
I'm so worried that I won't be able to make the changes I need to in my life. I worry that no one understands or cares about me. I am really fighting hopelessness right now.

I am grateful to you and anyone on pc willing to comment. I feel really lost.