Hi little lulu. Yes, I did see the other post. I'm glad it worked out for your friend.
Thank you.

I'm sorry, I see that I didn't put full detail like I usually do because of the state I was in.

I do have a job that calls me when they need me. It's not a lot of hours. I do have a some other kind of situation but none that leads me to have my own place and my stuff back or even money.

It needs to be me -- I guess to lift myself out of this.

I think I am not writing and thinking correctly. There are so many motivational books and career guides and everything like that...I just have not been doing right by me. I know it is the place I am at. I think. But I am suppose to start from where I am.

I tried so hard to open up my life again. So hard. I really don't understand why I haven't moved forward in this.

I do feel great shame.