I used to have a friend who did something similar with me and others in her life. She had some sort of hidden rule book that I had no clue how to follow...like, if she said no to something, I had to insist yes a certain number of times or I didn't care. It was exhausting and unsustainable.

People, in real life and the therapy world, can't read your mind to know what the magic response is to show that they are willing to be there for you. You have such strict rules, I don't see anyone being able to follow them without tripping up.

Maybe try something different for your appointment, and go in with a clean slate, expecting this therapist to listen. It's going to take time, anyway. No therapist, matter how good, can know what we're about and how to interact. It's a learning process that goes both ways.

I hope you give it time. Otherwise, it sounds like you are looking for this to go badly.